No intention of scamming yet, you used the money, instead of holding on to it and asking a mod/admin what to do since you were in this situation. Basically you made a common mistake we see all the time. You scam quit, regret it, but don't want to pay back. It doesn't work like that, stop buying beer, cigarettes, or some other form "play money" you have, drink water for a month and don't buy soda or tea or anything else. You can surely make up the money.