1. Learn to love to learn learning.
2. Learn learning.
3. Learn to love learning.
4. Learn with love.
Took me 3 years to get into the whole experience.
I used to blame a lot on practicals and circumstances too, please, don't play mind tricks on yourself and look for excuses to not go, look for excuses to go instead. There are tons of solutions to your problem, stop ignoring them, get yourself together.
Knowledge is power, once you become an expert at acquiring it passionately then the sky become's the limit.
I'm not saying you need university or college for this to happen, but most people do need its structure, as flawed as it may sometimes be or appear to be.
Good luck man, don't let your guard down.
PS: the college experience as seen in tons of movies is BS