The topic really says it all. I am at a point in life where my decisions affect everything I do and my future. I am nearing the end of my journey of high school. In my whole 3 and half years of high school, I have contacted and sat down with my guidance counselor three times. I don't want to expose my self but I am not like the majority of my fellow students. I go to a school with majority white, next black, Asian, etc. I do not come into any of these categories and believe it or not, I am a very depressed and stressed out individual. I have missed almost 20 days of my high school and one semester hasn't passed yet. I used to be a straight A+ student, now I'm a C student. I never knew my GPA throughout my high school career until now. I have a 2.9 GPA. I actually really try hard but I just cannot improve. I am not really a strong individual when it comes to not-crying, strength both physically and mentally. All colleges i'm trying to apply to have a deadline application submission of January 15. I may be a man but it doesn't mean I can't cry about things. I cry very very often, I feel like a failure, I don't have a job, I am nothing; I don't even feel human sometimes, worse than an alien too. My parents love me, they ALWAYS help me up and I always let them down. I never accepted this in my life but now I do, I play all these video games just because I want to feel good at something. I feel terrible. This is all from my heart, only if I could explain to you in emotions what I am going through. I don't even know how to end this............

 

Edited December 21, 201312 yr by OfficialSwaq

I know the feel bro. Depression is a horrible curse to be dealt with. For me getting a job, writing scripts, and staying busy in general seems to help with it. I would say that If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here, but 2 depressed people talking is no fun Anyways, finding a job is easy man, and so is getting into college. Quit worrying so much, and try to find enjoyment in the little things in life. Like a few minutes ago I drank some chocolate milk. That shit was so fucking good, it made my entire day.

I've come across a few people that are having a really hard time. The fix does not come easy when you're in such a bad/depressed state. However I'd suggest try hanging out/making friends and socializing, haivng people in real life that you can talk to helps alot. 

 

If you ever want to talk about anything add my skype: levixthexplayer

I know the feel bro. Depression is a horrible curse to be dealt with. For me getting a job, writing scripts, and staying busy in general seems to help with it. I would say that If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here, but 2 depressed people talking is no fun Anyways, finding a job is easy man, and so is getting into college. Quit worrying so much, and try to find enjoyment in the little things in life. Like a few minutes ago I drank some chocolate milk. That shit was so fucking good, it made my entire day.

I have depressed myself to the point where nothing seems to encourage me or effect me. I'm like a walking zombie, not even. I haven't left my house for almost 4 years, only for school. I can tell you so much that you'd start crying but I can't.

 

I know the feel bro. Depression is a horrible curse to be dealt with. For me getting a job, writing scripts, and staying busy in general seems to help with it. I would say that If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here, but 2 depressed people talking is no fun Anyways, finding a job is easy man, and so is getting into college. Quit worrying so much, and try to find enjoyment in the little things in life. Like a few minutes ago I drank some chocolate milk. That shit was so fucking good, it made my entire day.

I have depressed myself to the point where nothing seems to encourage me or effect me. I'm like a walking zombie, not even. I haven't left my house for almost 4 years, only for school. I can tell you so much that you'd start crying but I can't.

 

I know that feeling. Nothing I can do to help, but I really hope you start feeling better man Come hang out with your brothers in http://osbot.org/forum/chat/ sometime.

 

 

I know the feel bro. Depression is a horrible curse to be dealt with. For me getting a job, writing scripts, and staying busy in general seems to help with it. I would say that If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here, but 2 depressed people talking is no fun Anyways, finding a job is easy man, and so is getting into college. Quit worrying so much, and try to find enjoyment in the little things in life. Like a few minutes ago I drank some chocolate milk. That shit was so fucking good, it made my entire day.

I have depressed myself to the point where nothing seems to encourage me or effect me. I'm like a walking zombie, not even. I haven't left my house for almost 4 years, only for school. I can tell you so much that you'd start crying but I can't.

 

I know that feeling. Nothing I can do to help, but I really hope you start feeling better man Come hang out with your brothers in http://osbot.org/forum/chat/ sometime.

 

Maybe that is the reason I do sit in the chat. I feel like people won't judge me, and I can hide behind the screen. After all is said and done, all this makes me feel even worse. The fact that I spent my time online because I'm depressed, makes me even more depressed but I just continue. It's like an addiction to run away from the depression but the depression just outruns you in your path.

I think you're feel down more today than ever cause of your bans man, i know it sucks, but like 2pac says keep ya head up, you just have to find something other than video games that motivates you, go out and about explore new place and faces, volunteer in the hospital, senior citizen homes, or with under privilleged kids and you'll feel better about yourself while helping others, sometimes people just need to do something that boosts their self esteem, and you seem like your at the point where you don't care anymore which is not a good thing, lighten up buddy!

Remember what I told you, pain is temporary unless you give up.

Edited December 21, 201312 yr by Swizzbeat

AS WE DOWN HERE STRUGGLING FOR AS LONG AS WE KNOW SEARCHING FOR PARADISE DREAMS ARE DREAMS AND REALITY SEEMS LIKE THE ONLY PLACE FOR US TO GO, i KNOW TRYIN TO MAKE THE BEST OF BAD SITUATIONS SEEMS TO BE MY LIFE STORY, AINT NO GLORY IN PAIN A SOULJAH'S STORY IN VAIN, CAN'T NOBODY LIVE THIS LIFE FOR US, IT'S A RIDE, A LONG HARD ONE.

Man up dude. Are you pussy  Relief will never come if you won't step up your game.