Hi,
First of all, Im sorry that has happened to you. Betrayal sucks and I hope you still have some hope for humanity left. Please remember, just like people are unexpectidly capable of scummy shit, people can also suprise you with good stuff.
Having said that, below you'll find the link to my server. Feel free to message me or open a ticket. Im sure I can help you get on the right track
https://discord.gg/fNPK6Dx
Whatever you decide to do, good luck brother. Life is full of ups and downs. I know it sounds cliche, but it can only make you stronger